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Yesterday, my little girl travelled to the airport, boarded a plane to Dallas, and then to Minneapolis, and I wasn't there! Her grandmother accompanied her. Have you ever tried to focus on work when your offspring is in an unknown location in another part of the country? It's difficult. I didn't even know if she made it safely to her first flight until she was boarding her second one.  They cut it way closer getting to the airport than would make me comfortable.

Reagan is having an exciting summer adventure, spending the month with her aunt.  I'm excited for her, but I feel like someone cut off part of my foot. I'm completely unstable and unhinged. This might lead you to believe that I'm an overprotective mother and a clinger. I just point out my emotions at a time like this to further point out that I'm acting in direct opposition to them. And sometimes you have to act in direct opposition to your emotions to be a good mother. Sometimes you have to work in opposition to your emotions to be a good person, so it's not a big jump, logically. 

I am not, however, acting in opposition to my instincts. I know this will be good for her, I know she'll have a wonderful time, and I know she might even miss me a little bit. It's good for her to know that we miss her a LOT. Being a middle child, who was the youngest for seven years and is now placed in the role of the oldest, I know that she sometimes feels overlooked or unimportant. I know she probably doesn't get as much one on one attention as she deserves. I noticed this when the last postpartum fog began to break and have been trying to counteract it as much as possible.

However, she can sleep soundly in the knowledge that we are all walking around saying, "Reagan's gone! I miss Reagan!", and it's not even because the trash needs to be taken out.